||blue.haze|| - //with your wings i can fly\\

Still On My Brain
[justin timberlake]

The beautiful days are long gone
I can’t seem to breathe
It feels like it hasn’t been that long
Since you walked away from me
Now I can try to act real strong
But you and I both know I still think of you that way
You should know…that

The beautiful lights the star filled nights
They don’t mean a thing
Cause you were my star and so it don’t seem right
Without you here with me
Now I can try to act real strong
But you and I both know its hard for me to say
You were my soul…

Now I could say that I don’t love you no more
And I could say that I’ve closed the door for our love
And I can tell you I feel it’s time for us to go our separate ways
But baby I just wouldn’t be the same
Cause girl your love is still on my brain

Now when your in love it takes time to heal
When someone’s broken your heart and changes how you feel
Girl I thought that you’d never do me that way
But even after all I still think of you that way

Now love is a game that we both like to play
But will I win or lose if I go or if I stay
Even though I try to hide my broken heart inside
Girl you know me inside out and I can’t get you off my mind

January 28, 2003 // 07:11 p.m.
Nivea feat. Jagged Edge - Don't Mess W/My Man
Fucked up knee, loser girlfriends -_-;;

arrightee so, i didn't really blog about what happened this past weekend. soo here goes ^^;

saturday i go snowboarding, and about my 5th time down the slopes, i take a nasty fall and go backwards, but my board is stuck in the snow so i twist/sprain my knee. end up leaving the session an hour before it ended and went to the first aid center... what ended up happening was that i went to the hospital in an ambulance o_O never been in a hospital nonetheless and all of a sudden i'm thrust into an ambulance and the emergency room. i went in the ambulance bc there were no other options of transportation, and i think it's covered in my health insurance, so i guess.. why not. got it xrayed and stuff, nothing broken, cept for bruised cartilage and overstretched ligaments and tendons. i have to wear an immobilizing knee brace which almost takes up my entire leg. -_-;;;

gotta see if i can get a job at Panera Bread.. mmm yum..

anyway. so i'm talking with yusuke and our friend Jim, and he's telling us about his loser girlfriend, as usual. she pretty much abuses him and takes him for granted. if he sends her presents, she won't like them or will think they're ugly... and she doesn't like him going to concerts just because if she can't go to them, why should he? aiyyy she just pisses me off like none other. lately she's been hinting to him about lending her money to buy a CAR// i'm like, girl, you've got no manners and no shame. they've known each other for 2.5 years and been together for just a couple of months.. i was getting so mad because he treats her SO WELL and she takes him for granted, treats him like crap.. makes him feel guilty and puts him in a position where whatever he does isn't good. he spends so much money on her as it is.. through phone bills and small presents. wastes lots of time apologizing and trying to make things up to her. aiyyyy. i think she knows that she has him on a leash, and takes advantage of that. i pretty much told him to just dump the bitch. :P

i still haven't heard from the job ppl yet, maybe i can go apply for panera! panera!

January 17, 2003 // 07:43 p.m.
Eric Benet - Poetry Girl
Ladeedaa

X.First Grade Teacher: remember her face but not the name
X.Last word you said: weee
X.Last song you sang: current song
X.Last person you hugged: yusuke
X.Last thing you laughed at: Toki
X.Last time you said 'I love you': um, probably last night
X.Last time you cried: last night
X.What's in your CD player: X Japan Ballad Collection
X.What color socks are you wearing: white
X.What's under your bed: suitcases, a bin of food, my 10 pairs of shoes, bottles of water, and dumbbells
X.What time did you wake up today: 10am
X.Current taste: nothing, but the last thing i ate were chicken nuggets
X.Current hair: up in a ponytail/bun type of thing.. messy.also blonde n brown
X.Current clothes: blue sweatpants and a maroon longsleeved shirt which isn't even mine hehe
X.Current annoyance: being bored and not having plans
X.Current longing: to do something other than sit here :(
X.Current desktop picture: this blue swirly thing.. tym to change it
X.Current worry: tomorrow's first day at snowboarding
X.Current hate: classes
X.Story behind your LJ username: uh, chibicuddlz? chibi is small and well, i called the super deformed anime characters chibi, and i was "cuddlz" while my cousin was some other name
X.Current favourite article of clothing: my semi-see through red lace-ish shirt
X.Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex/same sex: throat/neck area, collar, and arms..
X.Last CD that you bought: i guess the x japan ballad collection, i don't really buy cd's..
X.Favourite place to be: anywhere that friends and family are
X.Least favourite place: dunno... bathroom? lolz
X.Time you wake up in the morning: 10ish
X.If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Violin
X.Favorite color: blue
X.Do you believe in an afterlife: Yes
X.How tall are you: 5'3"
X.Current favourite word/saying: yay, weee, ahhh, grrr, rawr, doop, and baby-talk nonsense
X.Favorite book: idunno
X.Favorite season: winter and fall
X.One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my grandfather
X.Favorite day: saturday
X.Where do you want to go: all over
X.What is your career going to be like: travel kind of job, successful and something i'll enjoy
X.How many kids do you want: 2
X.What kind of car will you have: dunno but i want a Si or a 350 as of right now..
X.Type a line you remember from any book: :P
X.A random lyric: ~kagirareta sora no shitakute kimi wa, ano korono kimi wo omoiteme wa. sugarareta yume no naka takute, sora wa.. mou ah~ [dunno if that's totally right lolz]
X.Identify some things surrounding your computer: speakers, coffeemaker, blue m&m plush, lamp, pic frame, books, couch for my cell phone, alarm clock, a lighter, a mug.

January 15, 2003 // 11:24 p.m.
Red Rat - Shelly Ann
survey

just the basics...
* ` -full name -; kristine
*` - date of birth -; 12.29, yes it passed :P
* ` - age -; 19
* ` - sex -; xx
* ` - height -; 5'3"
* ` - location -; up, pa
* ` - hair color -; many shades of blonde and brown put together
* ` - eye color -; dr brown
* ` - sexual preference -; yusuke

now onto the questions...
* ` - what do you think of cheerleading -; hard and fun to watch
* ` - favorite Disney character -; ahhh stitch for now, otherwise i'd say sebastian or something
* ` - what brand of deordorant do you use -; dove
* ` - do you know anyone who you think is homosexual, but say they aren't -; nope
* ` - do you know anyone who is homosexual -; a couple
* ` - do you know anyone who is bisexual -; yup
* ` - do you know anyone named Leroy -; dun think so..
* ` - do you like pickles -; no
* ` - do you have a website -; i have a blog, does that count?
* ` - do you watch porn -; seldomly
* ` - are you black -; nah
* ` - are you an ocean lover -; yup
* ` - who are you gonna vote for -; for whaT?
* ` - do you have your own phone line -; no thats why i have a cell phone
* ` - your thoughts on abortion -; you're own choice
* ` - do you like britney spears -; sometimes
* ` - do you want a britney doll -; uhhh
* ` - what do you want for christmas -; you, baby, YOU
* ` - do you have your 2 front teeth -; fuck yeah
* ` - what do you want to do with your life -; work for the ciA or be an FBI agent or be an embassador
* ` - ever been butt naked bangin on the bathroom floor -; uh, no
* ` - would you ever get plastic surgery, if so, on what -; if anything, lipo-suction but that's kinda nasty thinking about it
* ` - biggest redneck you know -; dunno..
* ` - last time you went to a skating rink -; last year
* ` - last time you went to a bowling alley -; a month or so ago
* ` - what perfume / cologne do you wear -; classic by banana
* ` - do you think foreign accents are sexy -; if the person speaking it is, but if he's butt, it makes me even less attractive
* ` - do you like jell-o -; its ok sometimes
* ` - do you like hot dogs -; depends, i like nathan's
* ` - brand of toothpaste -; Colgate bakng soda n peroxide, stain protection extra whitening LOL
* ` - last time you went to the doctor -; to get my knee checked a few months ago
* ` - do you think ricky martin is gay -; i don't care
* ` - do you think tractors are sexy -; hahahah toki, o.O no
* ` - do you have a credit card -; two actually
* ` - do you love your mom -; very much
* ` - do you love your mom as much as Normal Bates did in PSYCHO -; o_O
* ` - ever taken ballet -; no
* ` - favorite juice -; orange/mango
* ` - last time you used the restroom -; around 6pm
* ` - do you have any diseases -; duh no
* ` - last book you read -; uhm... prolly that "One Arrow One Life" philosophy book based on Buddhism
* ` - white, dark or milk chocolate -; white
* ` - ever dyed your hair -; began at a very early age
* ` - what brand of shampoo and conditioner do you use -; herbal essenses fruit fusions
* ` - favorite holiday -; new year's/july 4
* ` - do you still play with barbies -; nope
* ` - last thing you rode in or on -; uhh LOL LOL jk, gary's car
* ` - are men really from mars -; nah they're just naturally dense
* ` - do you have chores -; yah
* ` - last time you smoked pot -; Never
* ` - are you depressed -; Not anymore but it happens randomly
* ` - what do you wear to the beach -; denim/shorts n tanktop.. i don't wear my suit bare
* ` - do you believe in angels -; not the ones with wings and halos, but i believe in good spirits
* ` - would you ever join the army -; army no, airforce yes
* ` - do you want a puppy -; I have one already
* ` - ever had a kick me sign on you -; no
* ` - how about a lick me sign -; well, akio got me a "lick me" shot glass o_o
* ` - favorite icing -; prolly chocolate
* ` - are you a flirt -; naturally i think, i'm really "nice" and "affectionate"
* ` - last time you were scared -; when i was playing "Fatal Frame" the vdo game
* ` - last party you went to -; uhm, last month?
* ` - do you do your own laundry -; yesh
* ` - what detergent do you use -; gain
* ` - what fabric softner do you use -; snuggle pure n gentle
* ` - are your nails real or fake -; real
* ` - do you get jiggy with it -; damn straight
* ` - do you live in the wild wild west -; hahahahhaha
* ` - what do you wish your name was -; dunno, maybe Yukiko or something
* ` - are your parents divorced –; No
* ` - would you ever wear a waterbra -; no i don't like the idea of a fake rack
* ` - do you take lots of pictures -; yup
* ` - favorite tv show -; friends, wild on, .. dun watch enuf tv
* ` - do you want a baby -; HELL NO.
* ` - ever thought you were pregnant -; Never
* ` - last time you were sick -; 2 months ago
* ` - butter or margarine -; Butter
* ` - your feelings on mcdonald chicken nuggets-; They're okay
* ` - favorite movies -; don't feel like thinking right now
* ` - do you believe in santa claus -; No
* ` - do you go to a tanning salon -; im naturally tan
* ` - do you have a car -; Yesh I do
* ` - do you have your license -; Yesh
* ` - how do you get around -; I usually drive myself
* ` - favorite rugrats character -; chucky or phil/lil
* ` - got milk -; Yesh
* ` - do you sniff markers -; No
* ` - are you dissatisfied with your hair color-; nah i like it
* ` - what kind of jewelry do you wear -; almost the same stuff everyday. most were given to me so it makes me feel special when i wear it
* ` - have you ever modeled -; er no
* ` - do you shop from catalogs -; Sometimes
* ` - what do you like the preferred sex (or sexes) to wear -; khakis, black shirt/jeans and white wifebeater & timbz.. i dunno i also love sweats
* ` - do you have a cell -; uh huh
* ` - what do you think of eminem -; yay for him
* ` - favorite kind of gum -; whichever is available to take
* ` - would you ever get a tattoo -; yup
* ` - do you think lil bow wow is cute -; ew no
* ` - have you seen charlie's angels, the movie -; Yup a couple of times
* ` - what magazines are you subscribed to -; none
* ` - do you believe your horoscope -; not really, i usually read them after the day is over and see if it applied at all
* ` - what's your sign -; capricorn, aquarius rising
* ` - do you like coffee -; drink it every morning, i have a coffee maker in my room hehe
* ` - pen or pencil -; pencil
* ` - are you ghetto -; nah, altho some people think the things i do or wear, are. o_O
* ` - favorite lip gloss -; plain clear one with sparkles
* ` - do you wear a watch -; uh huh
* ` - sunglasses -; brown ones
* ` - ever use nair -; ? doesn't work on me
* ` - ever been to the mall of america -; No
* ` - do you want a leather jacket -; i have one
* ` - ever ridden a motorcycle -; No
* ` - do you think justin timberlake and britney spears had sex -; yup
* ` - do you read the chicken soup books -; a little bit of some
* ` - have you seen the exorcist -; yesh
* ` - are you online a lot -; not as much as i used to be in high school
* ` - do you have an old navy performance fleece -; somewhere in my closet i think i still have it
* ` - are you getting tired of doing this -; yup
* ` - do you buckle up -; Yup
* ` - do you have any siblings -; yup, two brothers
* ` - what are their names -; phil and pep
* ` - what are their ages -; 23 and 17
* ` - do they wanna fill out our survey -; no
* ` - what color are your panties -; blue
* ` - okay, we're done are you happy -; fuck yea

January 14, 2003 // 05:59 p.m.
FFX bgm
Classes, quizzes

so this week was the start of a new school semester, i don't think my classes are too bad, and i'm also taking a sociology class that focuses on racial and ethic issues. that might be my favorite class. anyway, i'm really bored right now... tomorrow i gotta remember to get an application for a job and pay my parking ticket. thursday is me and yusuke's 6 months.

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not very surprising huh?

January 12, 2003 // 01:04 a.m.
nada
Back 2 school

oki doki i'm back at school o_O feels good tho, i'm glad i'm back even if that means missing zumi [my dog], my family, and all the pplz back at jersey. i also left my webcam at home :( so no video chat til i get that back.

what happened the last week of break?

monday, ron tymmz and mo-tabz came over and we went over barrio stuff. dammnit gotta get that straightened out, who is doing which dance and i gota find out if we have the squash courts to practice at.

tuesday, i went to visit phil at his house in bloomfield.. chilled with aldo and talked. it started snowing so instead of going to ft. lee me and phil jus went and got wendy's chilli. i then went to yusuke's place to straighten some things out... while i was there i dodged and hid from his mom a few times. [it was like 1am and he hadn't let them know i was there] so yah.. talk about stealth -_-;;;; it was so scary!!!! LOL.

wednesday, went to philly with diane, ray, trina and akio. went to china town, the gallery and liberty place... went home and trina and akio spent the night. we watched all 3 parts of the ring, japanese version. ring0 was the best one IMO. the next day, we went back to akio's house where thomas and yusuke were waiting. we chilled and then went to cornerstone cafe to meet up with diane and ray... eventually we all left and then yusuke and thomas left for mike's brazillian bbq dinner thing. went out to olive garden with akio and her family and diane and trina. then to pines to play pool where a bunch of old skanky vietnamese guys were being very rude by staring and obviously talking about us. we then went to plaza diner and then to yan's house before i left shortly after.

friday i was supposed to go back to school, but i ended up not going until today. i woke up and had a pretty meaningful breakfast with my parents, coffee n stuff.. talked for an hour after we were done. left around 12:20 and got to school at 2:45 :) ate some sushi with the rentz, and then went back to the room and cleaned up a little o_O then we went to walmart and then olive garden for dinner. it was jack and yusuke's first time there :) and of course, i had most of my dinner left over.. i had to protect it from the guys bc they were starting to hound my food :( aiyyy back to school, it's gonna be interesting this semester ^_^;;

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January 6, 2003 // 02:02 a.m.
X Japan - Voiceless Screaming
Almost the end of break

the past 2 weeks have gone by in a flash, especially last week. i barely did anything last week, new years came and went.. anyway let's start with Friday.

i went to philly with my bro and i met up with sophie, someone that used to go to psu but transferred out after frosh year. we went to chinatown and ate lunch at penang, then went back to the gallery, window shopped and then she had to go to work on 21st, so we took the subway and i got off at 15th. met my bro up at liberty place and he got joanna a gift at the fire & ice store, which was wayy cool. i wanna go back there and get some matching jewelry with my k2c girls. around 6 we decided to leave and on our way home, we ended up taking the wrong exit and took the long way home >_<;;; i really needed to pee too.

oh and i forgot to mention how trina calls me in the middle of lunch. my phone sed that it was akio, but i hear trina's voice and i was just like, wha? turns out she came back to jersey for break for the next week.. soOO~ yah. saturday night i went back to the place i ate at for my birthday and k2c ate there, me and diane shared food as usual, tiger rolls and sukiyaki. one of the only reasons why i ordered sukiyaki was bc it is one of yusuke's favorite foods -_-;; on saturday, i was goin crazy cuz i was missing him so much and i hadn't heard from him in what felt like forever. at least the sukiyaki was good, i think diane really likes it. i personally woulda preferred soba or unagi don. mmm. then, we went to see if we could get our palms read, turned out the lady was going out, so we decided to go to Pines and shoot pool. there was a halfhour to an hour wait, so we look up a place in the phone book and find another palm reading place. we get there and the lady just straight up pissed me off, i didn't like her. she seemed 2faced and was all about ripping us off. but it ended up she gave us a discount, but was all bitchy about it. i'm not gonna say anything about what happened to my palm reading, but let's say that some things aren't true. one of the things she sed was that yusuke would come back from the trip and tell me that he didn't have much fun. nah, it was actually quite the opposite. anyway, afterwards we went back to shoot pool, kelvz pissed me and akio off and then me, akio and trina went to a diner after and stayed there til 3. weee fun.

today i went to drive my bro to the airport and then me, my mom and my bro shopped at jersey gardens. i got a new wallet, belt, suede cleaner, cell phone holder, bag and shirt. got home, ate chinese food and got fatter, then yusuke called and i broke out crying. why? i dunno, missed him so much it was like it finally came out.

plans for the week. tomorrow, ron tymmz and metabolyte are supposed to come over and help plan for barrio this year. yay ppl over my house, that NEVER happens since i live out in the middle of nowhere ^_^v wednsday, tentatively k2c is gonna go to philly and then stay over at my place for the night. not tooo sure but then thursday yusuke said it'd be a good day for all the guys to come down south and chill with k2c and whatnot. it'd be fun.. but i gotta talk to akio about it. i'll call her tomorrow.

i also gotta remember to get my oil changed tomorrow, send out my parking ticket payment o_O, check eBay... god i miss yusuke. its like a constant aching, its so unbearable sometimes. but at least i got to talk to him tonight, i feel much better. i also witnessed the way my mom started crying as soon as we got back in the car at the airport. dammit, i get it from my mom, the need to cry -_-;;;;;;;;; *shoots self*

December 31, 2002 // 01:47 a.m.
Tekken 4 - Xiaoyu's BGM
eBay! makes a return.. yusuke, joanna, and ... err..

ebay found its way back into my life.... in the form of snowboarding gear ^_________^v

i need a new jacket cuz my old one has a broken zipper, and i need goggles and gloves since i never had them to begin with. *THIS* close to actually buying a pair of boots, i'm patiently waiting for ppl to email me back, but since tomorrow is new year's eve, and then new year's.. i probably won't get an email until the end of the week. anyway, i should've spent more than 100$ on the two things i got today, but i'm only spending maybe 30$ on it total. ^_______^ yayy. i'm in the process of watching the jacket tho, it's tan and yellow and hopefully the tan matches the pants i already have... and well, the yellow can match the yellow goggles hehe.

anyway, i didn't go to philly today, i pretty much bummed around, played Ghost Recon [yippee!] for ps2. that game, the whole concept of sniping and killing and all that stuff.. stealth and slyness makes me proud of my male alterego. i'm my biggest fan teehee XD i also cooked, watched my auctions, played scrabble, watched CSI, played tekken 4.. mmmm that's all really. what a boring day, but i guess it's ok.. finish the year off doing what i do best - bum.

i am feeling better from yesterday tho, the whole birthday thing overwhelmed me, and now i think i can just dismiss all that. i do know that i take out my frustrations on yusuke, which i'm really trying to change. just because he's my best friend and boyfriend doesn't mean he should have to tolerate my venting - in an abusive way. i shouldn't be mean ^_^;;;;; i swear tho, even tho it's easier to see the faults than the good things, he's pretty much been there for me all the time, and he treats me so well, despite the small things that i want from him.. all in all he's just perfect the way he is.

my bro was talking about how his gf, joanna, makes him feel old now bc she no longer has the energy to go out and do stuff after work. and he doesn't like feeling that way, which makes him think that they won't last. it's kinda sad bc she's the person he's felt strongest about.

on a very disturbing note, i woke up today with yusuke's voice in my ear [on the phone] .. when suddenly my brothers call me to watch this video clip. turns out it's a clip of this girl getting fucked by a dog, ironically, doggy-style. o_O and it's welcomed too, she's all, good boy and .... it was really short clip but OMG i was so corrupted and disturbed, thinking about it makes me sick. i was almost sick this morning cuz it's like the first thing i see when i wake up, i felt like throwing up. beastiality is sick. EW. sorry for disturbing all u guys with that now. i yelled at my bros and i don't even know why they downloaded that to begin with. NASTY EWWWWW!!!!!!

December 30, 2002 // 12:59 a.m.
X Japan - Say Anything
birthday girl

guess who's the birthday girl? me. guess how many ppl remembered? barely 10.

anyway, today i celebrated my birthday by waking up at 9ish, my dad aka master tailor of the fam, hemmed my pants for me and made them smaller, so instead of a size 12 that the pants were, they are now like 9/10. yay for dadddy. and then i went to church, sorta, and bummed around the house doing random things til i left with my bros to go to jersey gardens. met up with yusuke and andy, and we went around looking for jewelry stores since my bro STILL needs to get his girlfriend a present. he gave up and then we went to find my younger bro a new jacket - i found one at guess for 30$ ^______^ i wanna go shop for myself now...

actually while i was at jersey gardens, i was feeling dumb. partially bc i felt like my birthday wasn't special, hardly anybody remembered and i was listening to something that andy and yusuke were talking about, some drinking party or whatever, this weekend or new years... whenever it is. i felt left out, mainly bc yusuke hadn't sed anything to me about this and i invite him to basically everything i do. then i felt like my birthday dinner was hardly one.. cuz well at first it seemed like my parents were using my bday as a reason to go out to eat w/my relatives. ppl like akio and diane, who mean a lot to me, couldn't make it.. i didn't even know where diane was til this afternoon and toki didn't come.... i didn't find out why til i got home, which was about 15 minutes ago.

but, by the end of dinner, i was all cheered up. i had a drink called ume, which is a plum sort of drink and really good, it went straight to my head and made me feel fuzzy n warm. good shit, gotta find out how to make it.

we went to play pool for 2 hours at Pines after we finished eating and digesting.. the first 3 games we each lost cuz of either the 8-ball getting in or scratching on the 8-ball. whopppiee. won a few times, it was fun tymz, i even saw mr. lee and sed goodbye to him when we left. i actually think he gave me a discount cuz i got back more money than i should've.. at least i think i did. mmm.. so now i'm home.. i might go to philly tomorrow. not sure, but maybe... hey i have nothing to do all week, i might as well make the most of my time home. esp when my bro is here, since he lives in cali now. who knows when i'll see him next since he found himself a full time job.

all in all, it was a worthwhile day. i realized some things that are important, and some things that aren't, and some things that are special. there was a moment when the owner brought the small lil dessert out with a candle in the middle (which i saved) and i was looking into the flame, and everything just seemed so perfect. i don't really know what i wished for, maybe nothing, bc i wasn't feeling like i was missing anything or hoping for anything at the moment. it was really nice.. when they sang happy birthday they even knew my name, it was just so nice.

December 20, 2002 // 06:27 p.m.
Space Girl - Get Mad
FINALLY DONE!!!

i'm done with finals!!! YAHOOO!!!! -_-;;; not without NOT finishing my stat final, of course. bitch. ok so this is what i'm getting so far... i must explain my whole ordeal after this.

KEWL Mentoring Class - A
PL SC 014 - B+ [dammit i missed the A-!!!]
JAPNS 003 - B- [*grumble*]

oki so at first i was getting a C+ in japanese. why? cuz sensei doesn't curve, didn't put in some of my grades into the computer, and is a jackass. at first i was getting a 79.8 (.2 away from an 80, mind u) and now i'm getting an 82.5 (.5 away from a B).. well. this all took emails of hatred from me, thoroughly debating why I should be getting a higher grade. yano, it's so typical of me to get the lowest grade in the class i worked the hardest in. If i don't get a B in my stat class, i'll be upset. i didn't even finish the final.. argh. I hope my other pl sc professor curves... i did bad on the 1st 2 exams and did well on my final, i think. anyway, i go home tomorrow morning.. i should pack and clean up, since i'm leaving at 9am... but i'm not. at least not yet.

Clubbing @ ROXY next fri, 12/27, come out n let me kno uf ur down!

December 13, 2002 // 01:20 a.m.
B2K - Bump Bump Bump
Finals, quiz, exhaustion

It's the last week of classes... tomorrow is actually the last day! and i'm exhausted. i had a final on wednesday, and tomorrow i have my japanese oral final and my final stat project presentation, which i am sort of stressing over. :( next week, i have a final on monday, tuesday, thursday, and friday. :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

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December 8, 2002 // 12:36 p.m.
B.I.G. - Cali
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December 6, 2002 // 05:18 p.m.
nothing
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November 28, 2002 // 08:03 p.m.
Yusuke - his voice over the phone
Happy Thanksgiving!

Gobble gobble everyone! i've eaten my good amount today, prolly will eat a lil more later.. puhahaha..

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bubbiebubbie bubbie!!! woo woo wooo!!

November 27, 2002 // 01:02 a.m.
Madonna - Die Another Day
Thanksgiving... home for break..

the ride home sucked. there was an extra hour of traffic... which really pissed me off. when we got to my house, yusuke's parents were already there and yusuke and jack didn't even get to come inside.. cuz his parents were lost and when we found them, they just loaded up right away and left. i was so upset. jack didn't get to see my dog, and yusuke left me so fast. i started to cry when i got in the car... so i drove off in a hurry. i don't think any other parting of ours went as sadly as that... at least from what i remember. i got back in my house and my dad was wondering where they were. they bought chinese food and nobody was there to eat it. i guess my parents didn't really mind but i minded. i can understand that his parents would want to go right away, i probably have been in that situation before.... but still. i didn't know that things would go that way.

so i played scrabble for a bit and then watched Gravitation, and now i'm online. i dunno, i'm just kinda disappointed in everything - the ride home sucked and my bubbie swept away from me with an unsatisfying goodbye, i got screwed over in scrabble >_<;;;;;; and yah. tired.

tomorrow's plans are to see die another day and harry potter, and then thursday me and my older brother, phil, are making the turkey! friday, my parents are taking us shopping. i need new nice clothes, clothes that i look professional in... more dress up shirts. saturday, chill with akio and toki and maybe jun, and sunday i go back to PSU. those are the plans......... yah. me and phil are gonna go running tomorrow morning and do pilatti's. yay! bonding thru getting fit........ everyone sed i lost weight, again. but i didn't make a difference on the scale. oh well, if the looks say i did, then that's better hehe than losing it on the scale but looking the same. anyway, everyone have a good thanksgiving!

November 26, 2002 // 11:37 a.m.
Jekki - Couple [remix]
INOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

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kawaiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!! ^___________^ anyway, toki, ur drawing of Jo looks really nice... mmmmm.. o_o i think akio is coming back from VA on saturday, so i think we're gonna have to just chill on saturday toki. anyway, i had massive hw, quizzes, and exam yesterday... all of which i studied for on sunday. i had the PSFA potluck on saturday... ugh i was really tired, and busy. no time to blog o_O but yah, i'm gonna go home soon, so i'll blog again in a bit.

November 13, 2002 // 02:12 p.m.
Justin Timberlake - Like I Love You
LOOk!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT ONE!!!!!!!

November 13, 2002 // 02:18 a.m.
nothing
why am i still up? O_o

to post a quiz, that's why:

Are you an alpha, beta, or gamma girl?

November 13, 2002 // 12:34 a.m.
Gackt - Lapis
It's been a while

but i'll finally have my next blog layout up soon! -_-; dammit it's been done for the past month n a half yet it was never html'ed in. anyway, ever since last thursday i've been studying nonstop because i had so much work due yesterday and today.

monday- japanese hw, stat quiz, int'l politics current events presentation and quiz, group meeting (this all ended at 11pm thank u)

tuesday- japanese hw, poli sci EXAM, and then powerpoint presentation plus skit ..then japanese group meeting for thursday..

k so i'm a lil relaxed right now. my brain can just chill for the day that i have nothing due. oh on friday, me and yusuke went to our first banquet / semi-formal at Atherton Hotel. it was muchos fun.. but my freakn stilletos made me feel like my feet were on fire by the end of the night. it's been a while since i've dance ^_^ it felt really good. and then.. saturday/sunday all i did was eat, sleep, study.. and i watched the japanese version of the ring, and then the american one for the 2nd time. the japanese one has a better story...

this weekend, diane, ray, eric, thomas, mike, and dave are tentatively supposed to come up and visit... i hope they do it'll be so much fun. we're supposed to go for a morning run around campus O-o [that must a few miles O-o] on saturday, then we shower and head to brunch. i can't wait ^_^ it'll just be fun to go and jus do stuff with ppl from back home. and yah... i need to finish up this blog. hope everyone is takn care and doin well in school!

November 5, 2002 // 02:00 p.m.
Diva - I'll Get Your Love
Survey

from Akio's blog:

BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Do you bite your nails?: only if a nail is breaking and i am sick of it jus hangn there
Can you roll your tongue?: all that and more
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: yup
Can you blow smoke rings?: no i don't smoke
Can you blow spit bubbles?: nope
Can you cross your eyes?: nah
Tattoos?: not yet
Piercings and where?: ear lobes and 1 cartilage.. hmm i haven't worn earrings in a while i should put one in just in case O_o
Do you make your bed daily?: yah

CLOTHES
What goes on first, bra or underwear?: underwear
Which shoe goes on first?: left
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: yup.. i'm forever throwing things within my reach
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: 5$, i'm usually broke tho.
What jewelery do you wear 24/7?: my silver cross, kenneth cole watch, and usually tiny hoop earrings but i lost one so i haven't worn them lately
What's sexiest on a guy?: his neck and collar bone.. if it's not defined then ew. other than that, i'm really attracted to a nice smile.
Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great?: well, depending on the occassion. i'd rather be 10 minutes and look great.. but if i'm just going to class or whatever i don't give a piece of shit.. i'll be late and look like i jus rolled out of bed XP
Favourite piece of clothing: prolly my navy blue sweatpants with the red patch (they're my tonhyuk pants)..i could wear that with just about anything.

FOOD
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: i twirl it half, and bite what i can't fit in my mouth
How many cereals in your cabinet? no cabinet but i only have 1
What utensils do you use to eat pizza?: fork and a knife
Do you cook?: when i'm at home

GROOMING
How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day, if i had something nasty or if my mouth tastes bad i'l brush again
How often do you shower/bathe?: once or twice, depending if i went to work out
How long does your shower last?: 5-10minutes usually unless i have to shave, then that's like 15-20.
Hair drying method: my head upside down, blowdrying.then straightening. but sometimes i just let it air dry
Do you paint your nails?: nah, and if i do it's clear.

MANNERS
Do you swear?: uh huh
Do you ever spit?: sometimes if i have to
Do you pee in the shower?: sometimes.. why is that nasty? lol, i also blow my nose in there sometimes. XP

IN AND AROUND
The CD Player: X Japan Ballad Collection
Person you talk most on the phone with: yusuke [short convo's] .. diane [long convo's]
What colour is your bedroom?: white
Do you use an alarm clock?: nope.. it's there but not used, maybe i should start instead of having the tv go on.
Name one thing you are obsessed with: guns
Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex?: yup
Ever sunbathed nude?: no
Window seat or aisle?: window
What's your sleeping position?: sideways curled up with a comforter, and two pillows on my sides
What kind of bed do you like?: not too soft, not too stiff.. my bed back at home is the best! (and the mattress is a pretty shade of blue)
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: yeah, but not over me.. i jus put my legs around it
Do you snore?: nah, very very rarely if at all
Do you sleepwalk?: nope
Do you talk in your sleep?: yup, most of the time it doesn't make sense tho
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: nah they're annoying
How about with the light on?: yah i can if i really needed to, jus as long as its not glaring at my face
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: yup

GIRL QUESTIONS
What is the first thing you notice when you look at a guy?: facial expression - if he's smiling, big or small eyes, hair style.. then comes the clothes
What do you think of cheating?: -_-;; why cheat? just dump whoever ur with if u can't stay committed
What is cheating anyway? when your physical affection is directed towards someone else
Makeup: i like eyeliner but other than that is kinda bothersome on me, i like this type of concealer/foundation thing i have, it's really light so it doesn't feel like i'm wearing anything... i wore it more often in the summer but now that i'm at school, i don't do anything to look nice anymore lol
Virgin?: cm'here and find out

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
Took a shower?: last night
Watched Bambi: maybe.. 3 yrs ago
Cried?: i think the weekend before last weekend
Talked on the phone?: 5 minutes ago
Read a book?: 4 days ago? last week, "Tao Te Ching"
Punched someone: an hour ago

THE FUTURE
Where do you see yourself in ten years?: on a jet, wearing a nice skirt suit, on my earpiece (cellphone) typing on my laptop
Who are you going to be married to?: the love of my life
How many kids?: 2
Your profession: embassador, director of culture, int'l relations official.. whatever
Future School: mmmm... maybe a law school in DC or NY.. not sure if i want to go to law school

November 5, 2002 // 10:26 a.m.
B4-4 - Endlessly
Erf

i'm tired. i went to my 9am but my lazy ass decided to skip my 10am... oh well... i'll have to make up for that and study intensely tonight. dammit all to hell.

Test://

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
yes i am

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she loves you.
mmm hmm

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.
in a sense, yah... actually that is pretty true if i think about it.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
well, i don't like it when anybody is moody.. emotional is oki if its a good reason... but the 2nd part is wrong! i know how to make my man happy :) i hope O_o

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.
well if that weren't true then i'd be wasting my time huh?

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.
yup.. like toki, once i'm committed i'm loyal to the end.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
these are pretty general tho. who doesn't want to treasure their marriage --;

8. At this moment, you don't have the thirst for love, you can't do anything for it, you won't fall for it easily.
i don't have the thirst for love.. prolly cuz i already have it? O_o and i well, before yusuke this would all have been true.. i don't fall easily nor do i really do anything about it.

Anyway. i'm gonna fill out another survey later.. for now it's nap time. *yawn*

November 5, 2002 // 02:27 a.m.
X Japan - Rusty Nail
I should be sleeping, but I remembered I had to do something

which was advertise for the position for "Jo" and "Tai" in the 36 moons. i don't know who actually reads my blog, but for those of you who do, will know the relevance 36 moons has in my life.

okie so these are just the basic, common sense 'requirements' if u could call them that-
Must have at least read 36 Moons. It would help a lot more if you're reading Fate too. If you're starting 36 Moons that's fine too.
Must not be shy.. if you're shy it defeats the purpose of anything.
Gotta be hardcore but not annoying. If you're pressing your shit on us then we don't need u. Have a mind of your own, but don't expect us to fully agree with u on everything.
Be prepared to meet ALL of us there's more then one of us. We'll probably hold a chat to introduce you so be prepared. You don't HAVE to know all of us. we'll meet once, if we all click, cool if not that's fine, we're not all extra super tight either.

okie that's really it.. dun be afraid to come and ask me or anyone else about it cuz it's not like ur applying to an ivy league law grad school or suttn.

i did bad on my stat quiz today. i got a 30. :P and i missed my vocab quiz cuz i woke up late. he drops the 2 lowest grades so it's ok, he sed not to worry about it. i got a 100 on my int'l poli sci quiz.. so yay! and um..i've got another vocab quiz in japanese tomorrow.. hopefully i'll ace that. bleh. got a meeting with my adviser to talk about studying abroad... i need to work out bc i'm fat.. let's see.. yah oki that's basically it. i took more pics last week:

the 1st one was last thursday, the 2nd one was.. last monday? suttn like that. um, erf.. i should go to sleep i have to wake up soon --; ok.. just one last thing before i end this blog.

what the hell happened to you and who do you think you are?

ok i'm done. i don't even know if that person will read that, or if that person will even know if it's them.. oh well.

November 1, 2002 // 03:55 p.m.
nothing
Toki doki.. O_o

actually, toki doki means sometimes in japanese. anyway, toki! here is a pic of my .45, the words on the gun can be substituted depending on the model, maker, or even customized. u can be creative however u want if u wanna think of something to write on it. i dun care. :P heheh

October 31, 2002 // 10:42 a.m.
Brian McKnight feat. Justin Timberlake - My Kind of Girl
My stomach...... @_@ x_x

my tummy hurts. well, its more discomfort if anything. i feel like i have to throw up.. but then nothing is there to throw up or anything that comes up is air/burping... *sigh* this sucks man.. i was actually gonna go to the gym this morning after my japanese oral test but my tummy was bothering me too much so i just went back to my room... i'm kinda sleepy even tho i have only been awake for 2 hours. -_-;; mebbe i'll just sleep until lunch. i dunno. we'll see.

today is halloween! Happy Halloween everybody! i was going to ice-gel my hair in spikes while there were in pigtails... but....... well no money for ice gel. and i was gonna spray paint them purple... but.. no money for that either. and i have a test tomorrow due so, i don't think i can do anything for halloween tonight : *sigh*

Akio... *pokes u*

Toki... *growl* .. hahahah.

ok that was a lame social blog i should just never do them. i'm sleepy ok sleepy time.

October 28, 2002 // 03:39 p.m.
Clipse feat. lotsa ppl - Grindin' [remix]
Boston, tiredness, and um, lotsa tests.

well this past weekend i was at boston. i went to the FIND [filipino intercollegiate networking dialogue] dialogue and yeah, it was fun except that i was running on 1 hr of sleep that weekend.. lotsa stress regarding a few ppl, esp this one guy. he was jus stupid but i'll blog about him later, maybe tonight. n i'm really tired.. i had a quiz in stat, and i have another quiz in int'l poli sci tonight. i also have a meeting at 5 for working in japan for the international relations department so i have that to go to. class til 9pm... i have a japanese test wed, japanese oral test on thursday, and my philosophy on a book i haven't read test friday. however i found a translated copy online so i don't have to buy the book! :P

bleh, i'm kinda pissed bc i think someone's been driving my car too much. when i last looked at the car, the mileage was at 247, and now it's at 444. ok so someone drove my car 200 miles, and if yusuke drove like 10 to the mall, say.. that certain person drove like 180 miles. where the fuck did they drive my car? *is in pissed mode* so i'm gonna take my car back and hopefully my kuya can bring it to his place.

October 24, 2002 // 03:30 p.m.
Brian McKnight - One Last Cry
A tour around my room..

okie so this blog is just a bunch of pics. i have to get going cuz i have an appointment at 4.

my room... obviously.

October 23, 2002 // 10:10 p.m.
India Arie - Part of My Life
The neverending cycle...

my life has become a cycle.

Monday . class til 9 and then meeting, go home
Tuesday . class til 11am, study and work out, go to class again and then study some more, chill with whoeverz
Wednsday . Class til 3:30. eat and study, PSFA meeting and do homework, work out w/yusuke
Thursday . Class til 11am, eat and chill/study w/yusuke til my 4:40 class and then go to meeting and then study
Friday . class til 4 and then i just chill and eat, do anything, work out maybe...
Saturday . if i go to the football games, i work til around 4. if i don't, i wake up around 10/11 and study and do hw for the rest of the day. i go out and just chill, watch a movie, etc at night, work out maybe..
Sunday . brunch cuz i wake up at noon hehe, study and chill, meetings, chill and do more work. i have quizzes in all my classes cept for 1 on mondays, so i study pretty intently on sundays...

and yet, i'm STILL not doing well enough? i was looking over my pamphlets of studying abroad at japan. so many requirements for grades and whatnot... I NEED STRAIGHT A's THIS SEMESTER!!!!

dammit. i'm so .. depressed on not being smart enough, not being diligent enough. see my pattern up there, i see that studying and doing work is majority, but why is it not enough? man maybe i'm just dumb. if i got straight A's this semester.. woooooo i'm demanding a big present for my bday.

akio, hm i don't know if u understood what i meant when i responded to your statement as "pretty much." basically, to stop hurting from emotions and desires... what i did was just think, fuck it, take care of urself. just don't become cold and unfeeling to the point where i don't recognize u.

shit, am i taking 20 credits next semester? .. i need a humanities class.. the mythology one i wanted turned out to be really hard.....

October 19, 2002 // 07:28 p.m.
nothing
Study, study, study... eat, sleep, study, study, study...

yeah so it's been a while since i've had a decent blog.. i apologize for that -_-;; i didnt even go to the homecoming game vs. Northwestern today... but it's ok, we won 49 - 0 hahaha :D shut out!!!! .. anyway. all i did was study, mostly stat.. i couldn't really study anything else because i left my book bag at tymmz's dorm. gotta remember to get that tonight. and right now i'm gonna go to the library @_@ haha weee.

October 18, 2002 // 02:07 a.m.
Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata
Okie so today was a mix of good and bad

it was really cold and then it rained and yeah... but other than missing 2 classes, getting a midterm back that i thought i did well in but actually got a 70... it was an ok day. i went to help build the homecoming float which is a tiger with his paws around the globe.. but it really looks like we skinned a tiger and put it over a box. O_o;; i got rained on and got sicker. :P I STILL DON'T HAVE CREAMER FOR MY COFFEE. -_-;;; dammit that stinks. well i was up and about, forgot my phone and id card in my car... so i was kinda useless til about midnight tonight where i met up with natalie n andy to get my stuff.

oki so akio, i'm not gonna say anything directly since certain ppl read this blog.. but.. i didn't kno u looked at him in that way! like i was suspected when u kept lookn at his clothes n sayn that akio would wear it.. but... i didn't kno that it was true O_o and just so that u kno... he's half single right now o_o we hafta talk! X_X

i'm sneezing to no end, i should get to bed cuz i'm making myself get up at like 7:30ish tomorrow. -_-;

October 17, 2002 // 12:17 a.m.
Ashanti - Happy
Contrary to the song i'm listening to...

i'm not really that happy. well it's been about a week since i've last blogged. hmm let's see, i went home for the weekend, had a shitty time saturday night cuz we were supposed to go to the party at rutgers but by the time we got there, we didn't feel like paying the door price. sooo.. we ended up gettn crunked at dave's. yah. um, chilled at home and now i'm back at school. wednsday [technically today cept it's past midnight now] was me and yusuke's 3 months. a little disappointed that we didn't do anything for it other than saying 'happy 3 months' a few times... i guess i should just be happy that i'm with him and not except him to do anything for me. jus thought that since it's a nice occasion we'd do something a little bit more special, but i dunno not really. ah maybe i'm expecting too much.

since i'm in my room by 1 and i don't have any real work to do...... so i guess i'll get in bed by 1 and catch up on sleep. or i'll study. yeah i should study since i don't wanna really think about things that don't make me happy.

October 11, 2002 // 10:39 a.m.
Luna Sea - Loveless
Rain, rain.. school sucks! *achoo*

ok for some unknown godly reason i woke up with a cold today. i got rid of it earlier this week with an oncoming cough, but it all went away and my cold came back!! WTF i was in japanese class and i could even speak cuz i was so congested. and i woke up to rain.. oh how cold the morning was, the desire to stay in bed.. NO i had a japanese vocab quiz. -_-;;; i also have a lab today, what is wrong with my professors!!!

anyway, yeah need to come down cuz i have 2 cups of coffee in my system, downed in 20 minutes. *snifflz* i'm going home in about 5 hours or so. can't wait to see my mom! can't wait to see my bro! and... MY DOG!!!!!! ^_____^v

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October 10, 2002 // 01:38 a.m.
Mr. Children - Not Found
Should be studying... but I'm not!

yeah, i have a test tomorrow at 9am.. it's almost 2am.. haven't studied... and um, yeah. i got upset at yusuke earlier bc he made a comment on how he was the only studious one in the room [it was me and him, gary, jack, and jeff] and i was like.. uhhh.. you don't think i'm studious? and he was like, i think i'm the only one in my standards. now, that just really really hurt. i just didn't even want to stay anymore. i take my schoolwork and studying so seriously and with so much pride.. it's one of the only things i anchor at home with... like.. i was always the one that did well in school and i dunno, to know that your boyfriend and best friend didn't think that you were a very studious student.. erf. it really hurt and i'm not sure if it hurt my feelings or my pride more. but yeah, i wanted to leave and well, i think we talked about it outside the exit for about a half hour. i was just speechless i couldn't say anything. then he just looked at me and started smiling, saying that he couldn't help it bc it was all he could do when he looks at me. then i started smiling and it was all g. -_-;;;; what a weakness in me...

Aoki, u want to talk? pick a day/night and i'll let u know if i can get online.

i love my new short hair Toki!! watashi wa totemo sekshii desu yo :D

October 9, 2002 // 04:29 p.m.
DJ Epic & Robert Miles - Fable [remix]
Derp?

i'm so sleepy and tired, my back hurst. but i'm gonna go and work out anyway cuz i've been a bum and i need to get my ass off my bed hehe. i ate the yummiest nachos today, mmmm... meeting tonight too. lalala. ... *falls off bed and lays there for a while* @_@

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can't wait to go home. 2 days!!! ugh japanese test tomorrow, poli sci quiz too. man. this sucks lol. at least i'm done w/clases at 11 tomorrow ^____^v

October 9, 2002 // 02:48 a.m.
B4-4 - Smile
Babie...!! and squirrels.

so, yusuke said the sweetest thing to me tonight as we were saying goodbye and goodnight. he pretty much said that he felt lucky to have a person so beautiful inside as well as outside.. and i was melting and smiling and ^____^ i wanna do all this stuff for him now... i was just feeling nothing but happiness at that moment.

me, yusuke, and marvin fed squirrels today. again. bob (the female) scares off every squirrel, even spunkie! spunkie is like... the best squirrel and even he is scared off by a female :D ah, don't be scared off just yet... they're just squirrels after all. true, a member of the rodent species but they've got furry tails that are cute ^_^ chipmunks are cute too heheheh XD

October 7, 2002 // 04:57 p.m.
Nelly feat. Kelly Rowland - Dilemma
Quizzes n noodles

me and my roomie are hungry, so she's eating chicken noodles and im eat shrimp noodles. mmmmm.. hungry.. and my throat hurts :(

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October 7, 2002 // 03:51 p.m.
Kylie Minogue - Love At First Sight
Nothing but z's is what I need

the workload is just unending. :( all weekend I studied for japanese because I had a kanji quiz and a show and tell presentation, which was to be memorized. I did all that, with yusuke's help of course ^_~ and sensei said it was good. I brought in pics of my dog and her name is "Kazumi" which is a japanese name. so he goes, Kazumi is a japanese name, why did u pick this name? and i'm all like.. cuz it's pretty.. -_-;; hahaha well yeah i'm glad it all over. But today we just signed up for a culture group presentation which we give in like 2 weeks. So, now i have another presentation that has to last for 15 minutes. dammit~!!! >_<;; i got 1 wrong on the kanji quiz too... *snifflz* =(

i had other quizes today, including stat which i got 1 wrong on, and one in int'l poli sci. blehhh.. tomorrow is tuesday, my easiest day, so i can relax a little. actually i'll prolly try to get a majority of my things done .. i also have to get my meningitis shot tomorrow. :P

oh, i should talk about what I did over the weekend since i didn't go home. saturday night me and yusuke went to the HUB and got our faces drawn.. hehe the guy made me look so devious. i have this smile but my eyes look mean! and yusuke looks a lil goofy w/a lopsided smile. we played pool and then.. on both sat and sun afternoon, we fed squirrels ^____^v took pics and yeah, there's this one squirrel we named "spunkie" and it's this real cute one that comes running to us. ^_^ there's one we called bob, even tho it's a girl, and it likes to bury everything we give her. there's a kinda ugly one called butthead bc spunkie doesn't like him.. and well.. spunkie is the man so yah. haha. and he's also kinda dumb cuz we'd throw peanuts and he wouldn't be able to find it -_-; ... and there's one called "the porker" bc 1) he's fat and 2) he BIT me and yusuke! he's so fat he thinks everything is food. *grumble* i dun like porker............. well then as we were leaving we passed this big oak tree with all these acorns at the bottom. there's a slightly big squirrel there we named "chunky" ... cuz he's a lil chubby and he owns the whole tree ^__^ plus he was cute :D ... haha ok i'll post pics of me and yusuke feeding squirrels when we get the film developed.

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October 4, 2002 // 02:53 a.m.
Justin Timberlake feat. Clipse - Like I Love You
No more exams~!!! @_@

i hate exams.

i can't study any more. the past 24 hours i must've read 200 pages worth of philosophy.confucianism and hinduism, gaH!!

not going home this weekend =*(

need to sleep.

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October 2, 2002 // 02:12 a.m.
Mariah Carey - Without You
Forgot one thing...

my cute ass lil baby!!!! ^_______^ okie so u all know how my favorite gun is the 1911 model, esp the Colt brand right? WELL, colt jus came out with a baby version of the 1911. they called it the colt defender.. which i think is too cute of a name! what's even better is that it still has all the power and prowess that a .45 has in a 1911, plus it's only 6.75 inches in length, the barrel being only 3 inches. HOW KAWAII!!!! ^_____^v yusuke told me to buy it cuz i was making such a fuss about it in his room. haha well here's a pic, admire and coo as u will, it's so cute.

October 2, 2002 // 01:48 a.m.
Kelly Clarkson - Before Your Love
Survey time..

my fuckin left nostril is both stuffy and runny but my right one is just fine.. wtf?! -_- i need to sleep.

Super Survey

Name: Kuppo.
Birthday: 12.29
Age: 18
Sign: reppin capz [capricorn]
Where you live: in a dungeon located in University Park, PA

W H O

If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to?: i'd leave them with my family, my brothers would know what to do with extra stuff that my family wouldn't want but maybe my friends.
If you had to go live in borneo for the rest of your life and you could take one person on this earth,who would you take?: i dun even know where borneo is...
Who is the one person that you could stand spending a straight 24 hours with and not get the slightest bit annoyed with?: Kuppo
If you woke up one morning and noticed that your leg was missing who would be the first person you would call: uh, i'd probably call... hmmm.. yusuke. and if he didn't answer, i'd call his roommate gary, then i'd call their room -_-;; but that's after hysterically yelling to my roommate. then they'd prolly all tell me to go to the hospital.. my parents would find out later.
Let's say your dad came in your room one day and told you that you had to get married in the next week but you can pick the person but you have to stay with them for the rest of your life no getting out of it, who would you pick?: i really wouldn't know, wouldn't u have to take into account what the other person wants? hehehe.. jus drag them to spend the rest of their lives w/u
What if you woke up tomorrow and you were someone else completely, who would you be?: um.. i wouldn't want to wake up as anyone but me.

W H A T

What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up one morning and you were the opposite sex?: like i sed.. i wouldn't wanna wake up as anyone but me... but say just for a day... WOW. i'd look in the mirror and admire my cuteness, then i'd play with myself and jerk off, then i'd borrow someone's clothes (depending on how tall and muscular i am ^^) and i'd hit on girls.
If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, what would it be?: hm, other than dancing cuz duh that's a given.. um, i'd say, fire a gun, more pistols than rifles or uzi type guns. i'd wanna be dead on target whether i was 100 yards away, or running for my life. -_-;;
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change(personality and looks)?: personality, to be less stubborn and not as lazy.. looks, i'd like to be about 10-15 lbs lighter and with evenly tanned skin ^_^ my body and legs are white while my face and arms are tan.
What is your dream career?: a part of a delegate team or possibly the head of one, that travels to different countries for political and social reasons.
What is the one thing you just have to do before you die?: go sky diving with all my closest loved ones
If you could be a member of any band that has ever existed, what band would that be?: a band.. i'd say maybe X Japan but bc i'm not a japanese boy... maybe No Doubt or something, be a female guitarist or suttin.
What is the thing you care about most in your life?: my family

W H I C H O N E

winter or summer?: winter
the beach or the mountains?: mountains
pop or punk?: pop
rock or rap?: mmmm... more rock than rap.
new york or L.A.?: nothing beats NY, altho tokyo is really cool but NY is the best. LA isn't as "cool".
Milk chocolate or dark chocolate?: milk chocolate
dogs or cats?: dogs, but if their big cats, then yah.. tigers/cheetahs... and my babie lion :D
britney or christina?: britney, she sings decently well and she's a great dancer. christina can't move for shit.
leno or letterman?: i think leno.
mtv or vh1?: mtv
country or classical?: classical
day or night?: night
lake or ocean?: ocean
waffles or pancakes?: ...pancakes. unless they're belgian waffles.
soccer or football?: football, go PSU!
baseball or swimming?: swimming
chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate
sugar or spice?: that's hard. maybe spice but i guess more of sugar.
grisham or canyon vista?: what the fuck? <- what akio said
eminem-please stand up or please shut up?: please stand up, eminem is the shit.

R A N D O M Q ' S

If you could design your perfect mate what would he/she look like and be like?: if he was perfect, i'd end up not liking them bc that would annoy me.
If you won the lottery what would you do with your, let's say, 18 million dollars?: uh, pay off all my loans and my parents loans, buy a house for my parents by the beach and have them to only work once a week or so. buy cars for my parents and bro's and then myself, invest a lot of money in stocks, put a shitload in a bank to earn interest. i have about 10 million left... so.. i'd buy a bunch of clothes and jewelry, and then i'd buy yusuke his car. oh and i'd buy tickets for all the yakuza to spend a week at the bahamas or .. even better, tokyo! ^___^ i'd buy myself a condo in every major city... (the list goes on..)
What is the single most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you?: don't know

H A V E U E V E R

Fallen in front of someone you thought to be quite good looking?: i did it like 5 minutes ago.
Run into a wall?: um.. not really
Sleep walked?: nah
Gone skinny-dipping?: yup
Snuck out of the house: yup
Gotten in a car wreck where you are the driver?: no
Laughed so hard that what you were drinking spewed out your nose?: haha no
Started laughing really hard so you just spit out what you had in your mouth cause you couldn't swallow?: yes at trina's house.k2c!
Swallow a bug?: yeah
Have you ever actually kept a new year's resolution?: if so what was it?: uh, i don't make new year's resolutions cuz i know i wouldn't keep it.

M O R E Q ' S

Ever had funny thoughts and laughed and no one understood you?: always.
When at bbq's, what do you prefer on your hot dog? ketchup, mustard, grey poupon, relish, sourkraut, or OTHER?: ketchup, sourkraut, mustard
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: typing on my cute white laptop while on a private jet, an earpiece in my ear. i'm wearing a skirt suit and my hair is still flowing wavy blonde.
What kind of relationship are you looking for or currently in?: one so deep in love
Are you really really really sexy?: just really sexy.
And is sugar ray only really sexy?: i have no idea.
Let's say that two days from now the world were to end...what would you spend your last hours doing?: calling my friends and family. then i'd get together with friends here at PSU and jus do what we do everyday.. play vdo games and eat together... hm, too bad it's not cold yet we coulda snow boarded.
What do you enjoy doing best with friends on a friday night?: partying, chillin and playn games, dancing, drinking, playing pool/volleyball, playn vdo games, and driving on highways at high speeds ^^; (akio! diane!)
Are you sterotyped?: yes
Who can you spill your feelings to and feel completely relieved afterwards?: diane & yusuke, it's only happened maybe three times w/diane and once with yusuke.
How would you describe yourself in relation to others?: i'm better than u so don't try n compete. ^__^ haha.
Who's your best friend(or closest friend)?: diane and yusuke
If you could visit one place(in the world), where would you go?: athens, greece
If you could get married anywhere, where would you chose?: mmm anywhere really
Where do you want your honeymoon to be?: mmm, philippines or hawaii... the countryside of japan.. hmm
What's your favorite candy?: it looks like a lifesaver but it's covered with sugar and yah
Do you prefer gummy bears or gummy worms?: bears
Hard candy(mints, etc.) or Soft candy(licorice, gummy stuff)?: mmmm... soft
Who do you hate the most?: U .. haha jus kidding. ppl who can't keep their promises, who can't be themselves... mmm
Who annoys you the most (be honest!)?: hoes on the dance floor dry fucking with each other and all the guys. then they get upset if one feels them up or if a guy gets hard -_-;
If you played Strip Poker , who would you want to play with(famous & non-famous included)?: HOT, Shinhwa, Luna Sea, X Japan, all my boyz n girls...
Do you prefer Chrome or Silver?: mmm, dunno it depends. chrome on cars, silver on guns.
Have you ever been on The Palace(don't know, don't ask)?:
What aisle is your favorite in WalMart(I KNOW YOUVE BEEN THERE!!!)?: hair product aisle
What's your favorite store in the Mall?: reference or any other cheap but nice clothes store. suncoast is up there~
What's your favorite car & what color?: 350z in blue or silver
Are you dominant or submissive(if you don't know, you're probably submissive)?: both, i like to be ravaged AND to ravage.
How much do looks account for in a person?: only in the beginning
Do you get jealous easily?: i didn't think i would but yusuke says i kinda do
Are you normal or abnormal(HAHA)?: normal in an abnormal way
If you could give yourself a nickname, what would it be(not one you already have)?: ...
Are you afraid of death?: right now yah
Do you like Mini-Golfing?: sure
Do you like Rollerskating?: haven't done it in a while
What's wrong with the color Pink?: depending on the shade, but i dun like it
What's one accomplish that you're proud of?: living away from home and being disciplined about it
What's one thing you would change about your life?: mmmm... well everything happens for a reason so i don't think i'd change anything
Who's your absolute favorite music group or artist?: x japan
How many people are on your buddy list?: the limit
Do you like chat rooms?: when they're going good
What's more important in a person: how they dress or how nice they are?: how nice they are
How much money is in your wallet?: none, i'm broke like nobody's business
How much cash is in your bank account(or should I not ask?)?: ... err.. 26$?
If one of your parents died tomorrow, would you be upset, truly?: duh. :P next person who takes this should erase this question
What's your favorite type of bubble-gum?: juicy fruit maybe.. hehe..
If you only had enough cash to buy one flavored condom, what flavor would it be?: coconut i think
jelly beans? If so, what's your favorite one?: i forgot
Do you believe in Fate?: in a way
Can you jump rope?: yup
What's your favorite lollipop flavor?: strawberry cheescake

R E L A T I O N S H I P Q'S

Who's your gf, bf, crush?: yusuke
Who's your celebrity crush(if you have one): junjin
Do you prefer "love" or "lust"?: love, u can lust after someone u love, but u can't love someone u lust
Are you a virgin?: wanna find out? ^_~
First luv?: ... yah it's yusuke
How many relationship(s) have you been in?: 3 including the one i'm in right now

F A M I L Y Q'S

Do you like your parents?: of course i do i love them
Ever run away from home?: hellz no i'm not crazy
Ever thought about it?: no i know it's a stupid thing
Do you have any siblings?: 2 brothers
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them?: of course i love them but getting annoyed is natural
How old are they?: 17 and 23
Do you feel your parents spoil you?: not really, tho my dad sometimes... he likes to take care of me :D
Do you not get along with any of your family?: yup
Do you have big family get togethers ever?: all the time

M O R A L I T Y Q'S

Have you ever been drunk?: eh not really. one time i drank like 7 long island iced teas in 1.5 hours.. but hey, all i was doing was really happy so i really don't know if that was being drunk.
Stolen?: yuppers
Shoplifted?: um yesh
Tried to commit suicide?: uh no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend?: yeah
Gotten into a fight?: yup
Would you date a drug addict?: no
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict?: ... mmm, yah, for weed
Are you racist?: not really but we all have them
Are you discriminatory to anyone?: uh huh
Have you been a hypocrite in the past?: i prolly was today *shrug*
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings?: open

FIRST THINGS THAT COMES TO MIND

Trance: thomas and andy raving
Yellow: chickie
Pebble: purple stone
Portal: mortal kombat
Crochet: the movie Heathers
Cocoa: "i'm coocoo for cocoa puffs!"
Love: yusuke
Melissa: my old RA
Bob: what Lou made us call him
Vanessa: balagtas, the one i kinda grew up with..
Alyssa: milano
Jess: my legacy sister
Brian: from F2TS
Charlie: charlie's angels
Olivia: Newton John :P
Drew: Barrymore
Lily: the peace lily on a lake
Anita: this girl that tricia used to be really good friends with
cheese: burgers
rubber: tires
clothes: my suede jacket :D
big: other word for older brother
dress: the one i have in my closet
jacket: my black one

that was really long... i shoulda been sleeping or something instead of doing that survey...

October 1, 2002 // 01:40 a.m.
X Japan - Rusty Nail ^_^
I really should be sleeping.

bc i'm going senile!! MWAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!! -_-; akio already knows how hyper i am .. i need sleep. i need to wake up at 8 and i'm not sleeping yet! i know i need sleep and i'm not sleeping yet. gosh darnit, where are my photons? ...wait that's jia's line. er. dammit where's my colt? .. ahh better ^___^vvvv andy told me that Sam's Club actually sells guns here... i guess cuz we're in hicksville and ppl out here still like to hunt wildlife. so i'm going to go to Sam's Club sometime out of the pure amusement to go gun shopping in a wholesale warehouse XD oh and my roomie showed me the rec room today, all the way down at the end of our hallway. it's pretty much secluded, one door and it can lock from the inside. ^^ weee, a place to do evil torture on unsuspecting freshman......

i found this really nice pic of a magnum .45, but i lost it.erf where is it? oh and i think i'm sick. no, it can't be allergies altho it wouldn't be wrong to think so. but the changes in the weather always make me sick.. so.. this cold can't be the pollen levels in the air. UGH and this kid next to me in Poli Sci... he scratched his balls every few seconds!! and i had that class for 3 hours straight!! EWWWWW!!!!! EWWWWW!!!! *gag* EWWW!!!!! and i just told me roomie that (she has that class with me) and she jus told me that everytime she looked over at me to see my notebook, she noticed him looking at me. EWWWWWWWW!!!! looking at me and scratching his balls!! THAT'S NOT A COOL COMBO.

i failed my two quizzes today, i have a midterm tomorrow, japanese skit on wednsday, and a midterm friday that is now covering even more material on it. fuck i'm screwed. my brain is going to fry.. WHY AM I STILL AWAKE!?

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September 29, 2002 // 10:55 p.m.
Amel Larrieux & Glenn Lewis - What's Come Over Me?
Midterms suck!!!

i feel so overwhelmed ... social stress wise, i feel like i get one after the other, when one gets resolved, another starts. now things are good again but for the lil bit that it was going on... i felt like my head was going to explode and i was going to go crazy. i've got 2 midterms this week.. tuesday and friday, then i think 2 more next week? i also have quiz galore too.. 2 tomorrow. dammit i'm not going to sleep for a while tonight. :( shit man. this sucks! i can't even blog for too long bc i gotta get this stuff done :T good thing i remembered to email my stat professor my lab --; that woulda sucked balls if i forgot. DAMMIT geez, i gotta get off AIM and start studying again. i've been studying all day :(

September 29, 2002 // 03:43 a.m.
Weezer - Island in the Sun
Lost our first game, quality time...

PSU lost their very first game to Iowa. took it to overtime where they scored and yeah... sucks :P we have this new rule about ppl who buy bottled water can't have the caps on them anymore because in last week's game against Lousiana Tech, ppl were throwing full bottled water down the stands. so, bc the PSFA sells water during football games, all i was doing was reaching into ice-filled tubs for water and i had to take off the caps for each of them. :P and it was cold today too!! ... grrrr spent 4$ on hot chocolate --; well yah, so my forearm is sore.

on another note, i spend some quality time with yusuke. we haven't spent much time together despite the fact that we live 2 minutes walking distance and go to the same school. other than eating meals with each other and studying together, we haven't been able to do much, so i have been highly disappointed. however, we ate dinner together, then went to the HUB where we looked at some art, then we watched Undercover Brother .. which was a very funny movie hehehe. after that we walked back to his building where we jus chilled and played games with the guys for a while. it felt really good being with him without having to talk or worry about school work and we did what we did back in the day where we didn't have schoolwork and extra responsibilities consume our lives. especially his.. god i was being so selfish. true, i think i'm right to expect certain things but other aspects i could be more understanding and if i just did that, i would be a lot happier and i think he would be too. *sigh* we've been through a lot this past month.. i'm glad it's going for the better.. altho i thought that maybe he'd be better off w/o me and my constant burden of stress... i know that i would rather stress and have him in my life than without........ i love him so much, i never realized how much i could love somebody. fell so hard and fell so deep. i don't know if any of you can relate to how i feel. it's all very intense and... real? kk i'm gonna sleep now i'm so tired...

September 27, 2002 // 11:12 p.m.
Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
Bowling~

i went bowling tonight :) i did ok the first game, and i did better the 2nd game by bowling 123. i always have like.. a few rounds of bad bowls.. :P it was fun tho, at first i didn't feel like bowling but then i gave in and ended up having fun :D yayyy. blah this week was such gloomy bad weather. cold, rainy, gray... didn't really make me very energetic lol. i'm actually doing laundry right now.. in my sweats. not out on a friday night. i think i got tired of really goin out. dunno why.. i guess i got bored O_o so i'm completely caught up in Fate and um, yeah. midterms next week so.. tomorrow night i think me and yusuke are going on a date ^_^ and sunday is study day. :P ughhh.

September 26, 2002 // 08:54 p.m.
X Japan - The Art of Life
Fansign, new layout..

jia, oyabun of the whole effn universe, made me a fansign! :

watashi no ichiban neko desu ne! :D :D :D jia thinks i'm the best kitty ^____^ oki so anyway, i sent my bro what i wanted of a layout last night and today he finally made it! yay! kupo! and um.. that'll be up one of these days.. i'm not tired of this one yet, never did green before. watched the Friends premiere, which was kinda confusing they had a lot of things going on at once. made up with yusuke and we're good again, i have midterms next week... @_@ i'm kinda sleepy O-o but i should do some studying before i start to doze off.

btw, i really am listening to the whole entire song ^^;

September 25, 2002 // 10:09 p.m.
Buju Banton - Twice My Age
All i want to do...

is sleep. just sleep. that's it. i went to go running after my japanese class this morning at like.. 10. only ran 1.75 miles but it's ok. not having anything to drink and eat before then affected me cuz i felt really weak. i'm really sleepy though, i took a nap earlier and i don't know why i'm still tired. i guess cuz last night i stayed up til 3 and woke up at 8. so 5 hours isn't cool. on another note, i've only seen yusuke once today. wow that's weird? and i didn't really chill with him cuz i was eating with him and other ppl and i got distracted by PSFA and whatnot.. and i prolly won't see him before i sleep so i feel kinda blah. talked to lana again and she was talking about joining a sorority ~ and i'm spent. i think i'm going to just continue spending the night in bed, studying for japanese and i think i should go type up some poli sci terms before i sleep. [tym to get shit done]

September 24, 2002 // 08:50 p.m.
X Japan - The Last Song
Sleepy...

i'm so sleepy. i'm studying for a japanese vocab quiz right now, but i started falling asleep. i'm pretty sleepy, and kinda tired. i dun like feeling sleepy at not even 9pm O_o but yah.. the day went by ok. got up and took my japanese test, i did ok i dunno if i got some right or wrong tho, i forgot a lot of kanji --;;; i then came back to my room, didn't do much i fell asleep for 10 minutes around 12 and went to mclanahan's to pick up some razor blades, where i saw aaron and andy lui[cock-pitt]. hehe and i tried to get andy to come eat lunch with me, yusuke, and jack.. but he went to mcdonald's instead.. !!! lolz grrr. went back up to yusuke's room after lunch and when he and jack went to class i fell asleep in the room. gary came back and woke me up, and i went to the HUB to meet up with ppl.

i was *supposed* to meet with these girls from my japanese class to do a skit.. but that didn't happen. 2 girls pulled a no show, so me and the girl gina jus decided to forget about it. i stayed in the HUB for the next 2 hours.. missed my kickboxing class cuz i thought i had to meet up with those girls *grumble* and so i jus sat there talking to ppl. the longer i sat there, the more people came by and i ended up not going to the gym, period, and not getting to run --;;; but what i'm going to do is go after my japanese class tomorrow hehe. sounds like a good plan cuz i need to eat dinner and then i have the PSFA meeting to go to tomorrow night.. so i wouldn't be able to work out with yusuke.

erf.. so tonight.. i gotta study for tomorrow's vocab quiz. i should go to philosophy class tomorrow, i've got an exam soon and i shouldn't skip the few classes before it. hehe at least i got jane and a few other ppl to study with. i wish there was a review sheet or something >>; yusuke's stressed out and tired from studying/working. : i really want him to go to the PSFA meeting tomorrow but if he isn't up to it i'm not going to force him. *sigh* and i made fliers for the meeting too, but they didn't get to hand them out. :P waste of my effort since i pulled it last minute. oh well not everything can go my way i guess, but i learned that long, long time ago.

i visited lana's blog and she wrote this thing. i miss her. :

"i know there are times i dont shOw my appreciatiOn to my friends....
and i know sometimes i seem to take advantage of all you've had to offer me~

-but-

i DO appreciate everything
all the love & support

and it aint always easy to say you have faith. you have utmost trust in someone...unless u TRULY know they are your friend..~*

*ShoutZ: to all yahz u sUppOrt me thru my worSt and my best~ who suPPort me..when i Cant seem to support myself..FOR all the times i have caused that gray hair to keep returning ^.~* <~ im willing to dye it 4 yah..keke

i've i had my share of failures

all i ask- haven't u had ur shares?

think about it."

September 23, 2002 // 01:26 a.m.
Kuraki Mai feat. mflo - Crumbly Butterfly
Rainy day

didn't do much today, woke up around 12:30 and went to brunch. did some reading for IR and did my stat lab, ate dinner and then studied for my japanese test that i have on tuesday. i actually fell asleep for about an hour cuz it was pouring outside ^_^ i love rain :D i woke up 10ish feeling all hot and yucky >_< when i was walkin home it was nice and chilly, and sorta windy. it reminded me of fall weather and i can't wait until it gets here. this weekend was too warm and humid for my tastes. i wanna wear my faux fur-lined, suede coat ^_____^v

i talked to my dongseng gracie today. it's been SOOOO long since i've spoken to her.. and i was all like, how's your man? and she sed, you heard? hehe when actually i was jus casually guessing ^^ it was nice to talk to an old friend, it's been months since i've talked to her.

i lost my ebay auction... again!!! :( if i lose the next one (cuz the guy seems to have an endless supply of them) i'm jus gonna buy the bag off of best buy cuz i'm getting frustrated. :P

September 22, 2002 // 01:45 a.m.
Craig David - Once in a Lifetime
Tired and sleepy, and accepting a fact

okie so i woke up around noon today, i didn't go to the football game to do concession stands cuz last night i wasn't feeling my best, i thought i was getting sick, so i didn't get up. the sleep felt nice tho... i went to brunch with my roommate and 2 of her friends, aka hallmates, and yah.. after that.. met up with yusuke to go study in the library. man, i lugged around the laptop and some books in the bag. that was heavy!! and the strap on the bag wasn't very comfy so it kinda hurt. i was thinkin the whole time that i couldn't wait until i got that bag off ebay.. but ERRR i lost! by a dollar, but that means that the guy who won it is going to be paying more money than its worth. sooo~ i'll go looking around again for that bag.. cuz it's mad comfy and i can put my laptop in there if i have to bring books around with it. *sigh*

tonight i didn't do much except eat at the HUB, play mafia with a bunch of freshies in mike and jeff's room, and now i'm jus chillin listenin to music and whatnot. at least i finished reading for IR (international relations/politics) today, i got a japanese chapter test on tuesday, so i'll be studying lots for that. majority of tomorrow i'm guessin. that's all for school i guess, oh and tomorrow i'm going bowling, maybe? i dunno i should study.

i've accepted that she's given up on me and that it's all in the past now. it's sad that it ended up this way, but i know i tried to get it back together. for a while i thought that it all stemmed from me not sharing with her everything about yusuke.. but i don't even feel guilty. i was truthful about it from the beginning, all my feelings and when they changed, it was jus unfortunate that i didn't really get a chance to talk to her about it. i tend to keep my business on a DL and exclusive. if she didn't think that any of what i shared with her counted, and that it was enough to base the entire friendship on, then so be it. all i have to do is finalize everything - erase sn from AIM and number from cellie, and it's through.

September 20, 2002 // 04:43 p.m.
Kurupt - On, Onsite
Quizzes

and not just online quizzes, but i got 2 wrong on my kanji quiz :( i freakin didn't know that the kanji for "dou (youbi)" was also for "aga". :P and i didn't know what "kotoshi" was so i jus did some random character lol. man!!! but at least i got everything else.. i think?

tonight is the aKDPHi presents. congrats to Nancy and Jess on receiving their bids and entering into sorority pledgeship O_o good luck O_o hehehe yah. anyway i'm hungry i have no idea where yusuke is, we always eat together so for now i jus hafta wait. i wish i had milk so i could eat some cereal.. oh and i decided that i definitely need a coffee maker. and i also got on ebay and bought a backpack hehe. it's 39.99 at other stores, 60$ original price... but on ebay it's 24.99 so hopefully nobody else outbids me. i'll be one angry girl >:O

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September 19, 2002 // 08:43 p.m.
Luna Sea - Loveless
Sick? coffee, new bags, plans

i think i'm getting sick. yesterday, my throat hurt, today i coughed once, and i have semi-achy muscles. O_O nooo! i dun wanna get sick... well hopefully it's nothing serious, i dun want a cold or cough, i dun wanna be useless and sick. >__< maybe i should get accustomed to buying coffee in the morning so i'm warm and whatnot. it really helps when i'm yawning in japanese class. frealz, today i was spacing out everytime sensei called on me all i sed was... wakarimasen, mou ichido? that's me kinda like.. huh? say wha? hehehe.

hm, so on the coffee topic. the lady was like, light roast or dark roast? i dun care.. whatever is good. i think i like dark roast... we'll see. i still really like hazlenut and sometimes french vanilla.. i had white chocolate mocha the other day, it was really good but a lil too sweet for the morning. and i need a new book bag. my jansport, already a good 6 yrs old, is still pretty in tact, in very good condition actually, but the zipper is being stupid. sometimes it comes apart and i risk losing notes and books O_o so i'm shopping for a new bag. yusuke got his triple 5 soul bag today, it's pretty cute cuz it's small.

for this weekend.. well i'm goin to Jeannie's apartment tomorrow night, then saturday is football game, i dunno what i'm gonna do at night. sunday.. i plan on staying in, reading chapters of stuff, and studying.. then maybe a nice dinner at Big Bowl? or maybe i'll try that japanese place n check out their sushi, i heard both good and bad comments so i might have to see for myself.

new fansign! :

yay!

September 19, 2002 // 12:40 a.m.
Jagged Edge - Let's Get Married
Mercedes SLK and running

arright apparently Trina has been spoiled rotten by her parents. they bought her a blue/green? 98 SLK with only 15,000 miles on it. man, i don't want the SLK but shoot, i wish my parents would buy me a 350z :D maybe when i visit Trina in Texas, i'll buy a car while i'm there. if the price is THAT much cheaper O_o

i ran 2 miles today. i'm kinda surprised actually since i hadn't ran in a while. hm if i can leave graduate penn state and i can run 5 miles without stopping in um, an hour or less i'll be really happy. k i've gotta get my ass into bed cuz i should sleep. i'm playing all this music and whatnot and my roomie is sleeping.

this guy, Jon, visited my blog, tagged up the board and also blogged about me. btw if you're reading this i'm the girl in the pics, so .. it's "her" blog :) surprised with the no anime layout? well. i dunno i haven't had any anime inspirations in a while.

song to download - Craig David's Once in a Lifetime.

September 18, 2002 // 11:12 p.m.
Brandy & Boyz II Men - Broken Hearted
Scary stuff and procrasinating

oki, visit these and tell me which one is scarier.

http://people.freenet.de/freeek/SajjadAli.swf
http://tafcuhouston.com/sayit.swf

both scared me, i actually screamed. --; Scoop i hate u! lol scaring me w/that second one.. and the first one! i was so unsuspecting.. Ice!!! ima shoot u next time i see u grrrr. okie so i'm sitting here for the past 2 hrs not doing a damn thing. i think i have some poli sci terms to define so i'll do that as soo as i'm done blogging. anyway. tag my board up! shoot.. hehe. i also put a feature thing on the side.. every now and then i'll update that with a different set of pics of someone or me, i dunno. and either a poem i wrote, someone else wrote, or song lyrics. yeah, i'll incorporate that into my other blog layout when it's ready. but for now, this is it. so enjoy and tag, tag, tag.

September 18, 2002 // 04:41 p.m.
Jay Z - You Don't Know
Finally

oki so i was being stupid and while i was trying to log into my redirect account, i was typing in the email section. no wonder it wasn't working --;;; well, microsoft changed their terms with PSU, so instead of getting things for free, we have to pay. so right now i'm looking for a copy of office 2002 cuz i need excel and powerpoint. i thought it was supposed to be on Kuppo already, but for some reason it's not. :T what's up with that? oh and i gave eric a new nickname. 'kalbi' is his nickname from me to him. supposedly he's thinking of one for me, who knows when that'll happen. i already have lotsa nicknames ^^; one more can't hurt.

anyway, the layout isn't too flashy, but it'll do for now i guess. i need a mouse to control the pointer better, but more importantly... i need my subdomain back!!! /glares at younger brother/ i already gave him pics of what i want the new layout to look like. hopefully he does it soon... !!!

yusuke's overwhelmed with school work. :T i thought i would be, but he's more stressed than i am.. poor babie. i need to get my act together and not slack off in japanese. just because i'm keeping up and understanding it doesn't mean i can skip class!! erf. /smacks self/ my kuya eljay got me some free PSU sweats bc he plays for the PSU b-ball team. he sed they were big.. but.. duh! i wear them big anyway :D he also offered me a ticket to the michigan state game at the end of november. 2nd row.. it should be mad fun.

i need a perfume/cologne. i've been waiting to get classic by br cuz i've been needed my old scent for a while, but i need some new ones too. what are some good ones that are out, and that not a lot of ppl have? dun wanna smell like every other girl. leave suggestions~

September 17, 2002 // 11:21 p.m.
Paul Oakenfold - Kneel Before Me
Temporary Home

yeah, cuz my bro's host is being stupid and putting stupid stuff on my page. this is a just for now blog cuz i was gonna do this other layout but i'm not good enuf to do that in sufficient time, so i gave the idea to my brother. hope he talks to his host AND does my layout soon bc i'm getting pissed --;

i came back to my room around 10pm, did a lot of things today yet i feel like something's WRONG bc i don't much HW to do in my room. *yawning* i got 5 hrs of sleep last night, maybe i can catch up tonight. i did laundry :D went to kickboxing [against my mom's will, shhh] and to a night class, a meeting and then a late dinner at Jimmy's. hoo hoo hoo.. i'm gonna attend a career fair at the end of the month. i need to pre-register so i can get free business cards XD